Hey everyone.
Hows it going?
I have been back from FFA National convention for a few weeks now. Mike Rowe from dirty jobs came and was our speaker. It was so cool.
I will post more on that later.
Well, im slowly realizing something. Im jelous of my stepsister, Kristen. I cant beleave it. I didnt want to belieave it, but I am. She is smart. All A's. While I have b's and c's. She entered something in a state constest or something and won. Woopdy do..
She is also goin to this vollenteer thing tomarrow and might get to work with horses. She told me at first that she was just working the art booth, but she may also get to work with horses on a ragular bases. She also makes it sound like she knows how to properly ride a horse, but no, she cant. She couldent even handal a horse that is trained to follow the one infront of her. She couldent handle a simple canter. She says that just becasue she went to a friend's who had horses a few times, and rode them, makes her a good rider. I took lessons for a year and a half and dont call myself the best rider. I know more then she does and she brags about it. She even has a pic of her on a horse to say she knows how to ride. I was like, wtf!?!?!? Thats not right. She had better learn the proper way to ride and fast, becasue if she does get to ride and work these horses, from the way she makes it sound, its going to be real riding not just follow the dam leader.
Man. Why am I so f*#*ing jelous of her. I almost want to cry. That, and my sister says im acting like my mother. I almost cryed when she said that. I dont want to become the depressed person my mom became.
I dont know what to do or where to turn.